Where to start? The title already tells you a lot, especially that everything is great. I was down south in the Allgäu again meeting my beloved Rapunzel friends. Haartraum-Nessa was our host as usual – and she was my hairdresser too. I was so happy and relieved that I could go to this little trip! In fact the babybump did not cause any troubles. Something which was really a bit insecure only two months back, so I am really grateful for my well performing body.
In March I already told you that I work way more on my haircare again and that it seems as if it is all about protein haircare for me. Silkprotein, honey and yoghurt are my current favourites even though I know when it comes to yoghurt the protein molecules are too large to really soak into the hair, but it is more like a film which makes my mane more slippery and shiny which shows the effect. But it works. That matters.
After the big cut in January almost everything of damaged, brittle and thinned ends are gone. My hair is still on the thinner side with around 6cm of ponytailcircumference, but it is healthy now. 🙂 As I have regrowth at all lengths from 8-10cm down to the tips and my hair structure is naturally wavy (2c which I usually brush out to 1c) I have a strong rendency to frizzy hair which looks all dry even when it is super soft and nice. But: here comes haircare. 🙂 In my case we talk about a lot of care. I am a lazy girl when it comes to haircare, but well my hair requires a lot of attention if I want to have it pretty (I do!) therefore I compensate lazyness with discipline. I look at this topic just like the necessity of brushing my teeth. This too is nothing I do with passion but as I know it is important (especially as teeth don’t regrow like hair does!) I do it with all the needed dedication.
First of all it was and is stunning how different the reactions of other people were. Here on the blog almost everybody wrote down her congratulations and told me – which made me so happy! – that my other topics are even more interesting than my hair articles. Yeah! Thank you!
I wrote a novel. And I am not talking about “Wer ist Jakob Winter” here. Unfortunately not. I wrote a novel article about my ongoing thougts about whether I should or should not cut my hair. About what my hair is and what it can be – and what it can’t. What I want it to be which is not possible: being very long and thick or at least no longer thin. I wrote about this dilemma many longhaired ladies go through after some years of growing when for some of them – like me – it becomes more an more obvious that dream and reality don’t match and probably won’t ever do. I wrote about patience and care, about hope and waiting and years passing by and so so many thoughts in my head. And I wrote about wanting to be the best me. Not a version of me that might be better one day, but now. I wrote about the whish to be positive and therefore do the best for me and my hair I can: loving it for what it is without envy, without longing for somebody else’s hair identity. I am the one who loves the colour seasons and body types as they help to make life easier and more beautiful, a better version of each of us in a very simple way. And I wrote about finally being fed up with waiting for something which might never happen to me: a real Rapunzel’s mane. About looking at myself in the mirror, mild and friendly and just accepting that for now my dream of long and healthy hair is again just a dream. I did not kill this wish, I just brought it to sleep for the next years until maybe my hair will have grown down thick and healthyly – or not and then I finally have a hairstyle doing the best for me it can. I also wrote about you, who I was afraid to lose, if I decided to cut. But now I am shure that you will stay, because you reflect what my blog already became. Haselnussblond is by far more than only hair, my topics are deeper and smarter than that and so are you. You are always loyal, friendly, communicative and well yes, just my community which I appreciate so much. And so finally I did it. I cut. And it feels free, what is the best my hair can do for me at the moment.
Let go of what no longer serves you.
So my hair might no longer be special in any sense. But I am a confident and positive woman my smile does not depend on my hair. But of course I will smile widely if I ever can come back of my dream to tailbone length. Maybe. Who knows? I don’t and so I worked with what I see and know and am happy to finally finally have hair which does the best for me it can. No thinned lengths, no hairloss leftovers, no curling iron damage, just my silky fine hair with an even volume and the colour I love. Me. And free. 😀
New month, new post about my hairlength! And hey, my hair grew 1,5cm since the last cut! Maybe it grew even a bit more if you measure the very last hair. Well, 1,5cm sounds both nice and realistic, 2cm would be just too good. Meanwhile my ponytailcircumference “rose” so 6,2cm which is 1mm more than last month. This means, that I have the same circumference for almost a year now, constantly slightly over 6cm. I still wonder if there can be more.
Holidays. Vacations. Coming to rest. These are my top priorities right now. And that is why my blog sees fewer updates than you are used to. But there will be other times again soon. For now I enjoy my free time to recharge.
In fact, time passes. And this is something I am grateful for momentarily. Somehow bitter as it is so true: no day will ever return, so counting the days is nothing worth striving for. But now there are only 2 weeks left till I reduce worktime from 5 to 3 days per week at the office. Who is not only watching but also reading on Instagram knows that this is really a final sprint. And in fact I would really like to lie down and wait for somebody to carry me over the finish line. Usually you are this somebody yourself…